Every things is changed. Since he had gone from our life, days become different. Every afternoon that usually we was waiting for his coming from his job, now become a meaningless waiting. I still keep in mind how the situation and condition at that passing time. How the way he entered the house, and what he did after that.
At least once a week we had dinner outside together, but now we never do that again. It was a year since ramadhan last year. Can you imagine how long time ?
He knows how to make his family happy, because he knows what his children need. Travelling !!. Ya we like travelling, even only around the city, but it doesn’t matter whenever we go, the important is togetherness.
Sometimes I complain why this happen to me ? I often fancy that if only he still stay with us now, how happy I am and I have a complete house. But God knows what is the best for us.
Every I remember him, I always remember his smile when he made a joke for my little brother. So funny, because my brother sulked. And its made me to join their joking.
The thing that very made me sad is when we went to his hometown to celebrate ‘Ied Adha in 2016. Usually when we back to hometown, the car is always driven by him, but at this Ied, who was driving my car ? My cousin. My brother and I cannot drive yet. Ya of course I felt so sad. The driver should be my dad, not my cousin. That place is only for you dad. Not others. Except your children when they could drive later on.
I try to comfort my self by talking to others if only he still live now. Because he always live. In our heart. Me, my mom, and my brothers.
Do’a ? who won’t give du’a for his/her parents may not call child I think. Every child must give du’a for his/her parents, whether they alive or not. I thank to God who give me very good and perfect parent to me.
Every different thing that I face, I try to make it all a new thing, and I have to be positive to God. Human only plan, but God will decide every thing.
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